Even in October … Satisfaction
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| c. Oct 2015, heading into work, the sun and clouds make pretty |
I like the word, not sure about the feeling it is supposed to represent.
What happens when you pursue your happiness to the best of your ability and the system fucks you over? Do you … change what makes you happy? Do you … try to figure out any possible way to make the system wrong, and thus regain satisfaction with your happiness? Do you… try to figure out how to change the system so that what you really want is thus supported as correct and right, and thus your satisfaction returns?
How do you deal with the inevitable change that the sands of time etch and erode into your life?
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| c. Jul 2007, who was that guy? |
My friends and I are pursuing… well, we’re wading through shit. We’re revisiting shit from the past 12 months – and it’s just as shitty as it was then, and now – it’s just so annoying.
The goal – the desire to be satisfied with our efforts – is to have a happy and healthy child grow up. Kind of an odd ‘group’ goal, but that’s what it is.
What do you do when you’re doing it for the children?
Yeah, it’s a throw-away jibe, but sometimes, when you’re in search of satisfaction, it’s a whole lot more. You look and search and ponder and seek the line to say, the question to ask, the point to make and exhibit – look here – our side is better than their side, and if you choose our side that’s the right thing to do.
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| c. June 2015, went for a walk, got to the top … Look to this Day |
Of course that the process is composed of humans acting humanly, I have little hope that this will be easy – I fear that because our friend is trying to do the right thing, she will suffer for the rest of her life. All because things change. Not because it’s an insurmountable development, but because humans get to choose to act and do things that aren’t particularly nice, and those choices, though taken at a staggering cost both now and for the future lives, are perfectly legit, and even easy, if you have the means.
From the Wiki-base …
“Satisfaction may refer to:
Contentment
Computer user satisfaction
Customer satisfaction
Job satisfaction
Satisfaction theory of atonement, a Christian view of salvation
The specification of variables that make an open sentence true
The regaining of honour in a duel”
or just maybe, how does that song go …
“I can’t get any // satsifaction
but I try, and I try, and I try …
I just can’t get none…”
[actually, it’s these words ….
“I can’t get no, oh no no no
Hey hey hey, that’s what I say
I can’t get no satisfaction
I can’t get no girl reaction
Cause I try and I try and I try and I try
I can’t get no, I can’t get no
When I’m ridin’ round the world
And I’m doin’ this and I’m signing that
And I’m tryin’ to make some girl
Who tells me baby better come back later next week
Cause you see I’m on losing streak
I can’t get no, oh no no no
Hey hey hey, that’s what I say
I can’t get no, I can’t get no
I can’t get no satisfaction
No satisfaction, no satisfaction, no satisfaction”
Even in October.