amazing! and deadly ~ of shoes, in october

“it makes my heart ache for live music” Cheryl says of the Lawn In the Morning set from Naked Giants this morn. how we will survive, how things will change, will we emerge soon with a better grasp of a good life?

a day of discord – what to do now? what we’ve been doing, but with MORE worry, more anxiousness – woot! A tad cruel this swipe by the Universe but alas we must roll with it and remain grateful for our lucky path to this point. But worry we shall, for we are good at that, so very very good at that.

The kiddo also brings a difference to my thoughts/feels of how this matters – not surprising but certainly more in my face/mind/thoughts – different than the ‘yay, passport soon, hopefully – as a backup option’ general and reasonable 2020 worries; this is out of my control – I want so dearly, but it just doesn’t matter. So I breath, or try to. And capture the clouds drifting by.

a quick out to the store for supplies, a visit to the swings so the boy could feel the wind in his hair, then home with the world’s tiredest toddler … “NNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” was an answer to, I believe, ‘want a cheese-stick?’ – it’s only a guess that he may have been tired. Then at the time for slumber to begin he kept having me push him down face-first into his pillow, from him kneeling on his bed. Really think we’ll be able to get by with some really cheap vacations, just saying.

And so we go, along the path, trying to embrace the words and wisdom shared, shocked by the gullies the rivulets of worry have overflowed, our eyes unable to see the other rivulets that water the garden, the flowerbed, the forest. Mechanical it was noted, our ability to look for and see. Now I just need to think of the kiddo splashing in the puddle of overflow worry, splashing and giggling til the day is done.

Ciao,
:: s ::
Respice ad diem hanc | “Don’t Forget to Be Awesome”

//12:38p+16Oct20 = Friday || “Epic” by Faith No More via good soul John on keXp//